5 Weeks Old
31 Weeks 2 Days Gestation (7.75 mo. pregnant equivalent)
3 lb. 0.67 oz (original birth weight 2 lb 4 oz)
The biggest milestone of course is that Casey hit 3 lb. She's taken full feedings, they have this formula to calculate based on their body weight how much they should be eating every 3 hours. We had a worrisome last week because she wasn't gaining weight last week. They added more breast milk and fortified the milk to add more calories but she was still not gaining weight. Probably because she has become a lot more active. She' s a squirmer and she's so strong. She manages to lift her head up when she's on her tummy. We love seeing her activity but we want her to sleep and just concentrate on growing. So much is dependant on her gaining body fat. She won't be able to regulate her body temperature until she has more body fat, thus she's confined to her plastic isolette. I'm a little worried, they called me today and said they had a meeting about her slow weight gain and are going to play around with her feedings.
The other super awesome development is that she's begun to open her eyes more. The nurses have always said that she opens one eye occasionally but we almost never see it. One, she's so young and small and two, her mask put a lot of pressure on her face and caused her eyes to get puffy. She's grown into a bigger apnea mask and the swelling in her face has gone down a lot. Last week, I was treated to her opening BOTH eyes and looking around for several minutes. I was so excited, I couldn't wait for Scott to see it, but she didn't treat us to it for another few days. Since then, she's been consistently opening an eye or both eyes when we wake her up to kangaroo her.
-her Friday head ultrasound came back with a normal reading
-she has passed the 3 lb mark
-her breathing has been a little more stable...she likes oxygen levels in the mid-20's but does have to get bumped up to the thirties when her sleep is disturbed
-she's much more tolerant of being touched
-opening her eyes and looking around
-Protection from sickness!!!
Yesterday, I visited my toddler nieces and one of them is getting over being sick. I tried to avoid her but how can you reject a cute 2-year old, albeit with abundant nose snot, who climbs into your lap and requests "hug!!!" This from the girl who doesn't have much words in her vocabulary.
I'm sick with worry too because last night we visited Casey and I kissed her soft little sweet cheek over and over again. while Scott held her. This morning I woke up extremely fatigued and with body aches. Which means I'm not going anywhere near the hospital but I'm also worried I might have already brought some germs in. Lord, please kill any germs and keep my baby girl happy and healthy.
We want to aim for .7 oz gain a day.
-Complete recovery for my health
I want to wake up tomorrow and this all just have been a fluke, I was just tired from lack of sleep. This will be the first day I don't get to see Casey. One thing I was so thankful for, was that of Allison's 19 days, we were there every day.
Kangaroo time is over. Casey definitely does not like being woken up from her slumber. Hmmm, just like Daddy.
She reminds me of that cartoon, the Snorkels.
I apologize for not giving an update this past weekend. Much of our sadness over losing Rory and Allison is abated by the comfort of having Casey in our lives. Our sadness is tempered with joy. But, it also means that things that should bring me joy are tinged with sadness. Casey turned 1 month old this past Saturday. It's hard to reflect upon her birth without the sorrow of remembering that we lost Rory that day. And that delivery, which usually brings people so much joy was one filled with fear for us. That because it happened so early, we eventually lost our oldest daughter. Saturday was a rough day for me. I can't watch those million episodes of "Baby Story" or "Maternity Ward" on every channel. I had to turn off Grey's Anatomy because the storyline involved a premature baby.
I want to celebrate Casey with everything we have. She's an amazing gift. But for now, these milestones have a trace of painful memories. I know it will get easier and I want it to, but without having to sacrifice my memories of all my girls.